Friday, February 27, 2009
I really think my interpersonal SKill.. or my speech ... is geTttinG from Bad to WorsT!!!What the shit.. just finish my sEcond rounD witH the ang Mo and feel totally DemoRAlise now... I wonDer if I am able to geT in...
Year 2009.. sucks for now, what a year to begin with, looks like anything that may go wrong, went wrong!
The Laydee
is just simply Gorgeous 6:17 AM
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Tuesday, July 01, 2008
2008 , Middle of the YeaR already.. WoW!
It been like how long since I touches or even write anything into this website... WUA sA ~the Last posT :"Sunday, August 12, 2007" OMG... so LonG liao sia..... U should know how Lazy I am... hahahah
Let REcaP what happen over these years.... hm....
JoB chaNged.. Again... into something different, finaLLy get that pieCe outta my head. Picking up mY thaT little "ego" from the gRound again.. Trying to bloW off the pIece of coVered dust from there and slowly revive its "shinE" once more...
Not a easy move.. gonna be hard, heading out slowly, adding a little courage with each and every step.
LooKs like everyone around me gotten some acheivements in their life:
- the Married ones
- TakE off in their Career
- In the mid of getting Married
- Even Ex-bf have a kid... 'aiyo... '
and me? still looking out to a numourous "?"
I guEss the sense of failure been getting into me during my transition in my mid life cycle... Really.. I got to do something to myself, my bank, my life.. and to that little "ego" of mine that was almost buried deep within some time ago... by some bXXXXXX
well.. everything is finally over and somEthings is brewing underneath , within... Jia lAT... I jusT have to inject more "+" into my cell,otherwise it just be another un forseen cycle.
Growing up?
It a gamE or what?? so maNY stages, so ma Fan...
The Laydee
is just simply Gorgeous 5:46 AM
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Sunday, August 12, 2007
ALways on the Bright side, Life is beautiful.... iT no longer a phase but a question to me now.... my determination a year ago:"U can do it if u put ur heart and soul" and now ::"U can do it if u put ur heart and soul, but are you sure you are cut to it?"it AmAzed how one can change over time, seeing myself aging and always filled with more questions in my head. Into the stage of funeral, weddings, baby shower and house warming... hahaha... yeah.... think this is the phase I m in... Quarter life crisis?
Keeping myself in a hibernatinG state, not really wanted to see or meet anyone unless deem neccessary,lifeless... filled with Nua-ness... hahah... yuP, turning each and every ounces of mucsle into Fats... hm.. lumpy and old, feel the difference in me now, especially after all the refreshment of photos from the past... wua.... change so much... sagging, bigger face, half open eye.. lost the shine, hiak hiak...
Too into my own world to look into others, not even want to strike up a conversation but rather stare into the space and think of absolute :"nothing"
inTO another State of Transition...
The Laydee
is just simply Gorgeous 8:13 AM
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Thursday, May 03, 2007
OMG!! It been PukinG long sinCE I bloG on my verY spaCE!!! hahahahah ALl thanks to the hectic lifestyle I m living now...Path Ain't easy witH a brand new job in the mist of STudies!! Glad thAT I pull ThrU until Now.... haiz... I should be slping now when I had just slept like less than 4 hours last nite.. Thks to the accident at Kim SEng Ave ... or somewhere there la...
SO sleepy yET noT wanting to slp... FinallY got over the APril HurDle & welcoming the next one in Mid MAY! Sometime I just feel like sitting on the floor n weep... nothinG seems to trigger my excitment, not even clubbing or making me toxicated... lolz....
SO Much chanGES thAT somehow brought me to another level of perspective again... still in the mist of processing, trying to find that Optimum answers....Utimately, it still my own decision that rules over anything.
NEverThelEss, somE of the fun TimE over the HigH tides moment with the troops of Ka Kia,OH, and my TaiwaN trip in MArch!
The Laydee
is just simply Gorgeous 9:00 AM
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Saturday, November 18, 2006
Yeah, simply lazy to write about what going on these few months~~Just some updates over my hectic lives, work is one of my main problems during the last few weeks, not that I m outta job or getting fired or stuff like tat.... pondering over the choices to make, path to take n where to pursue..
QUited my job @ the BKL place, n got on to another.... got call back to the previous job, but did not go back after several struggling over to go or not to go.... been a mth now ever since I left that place ... kinda of get use to the working enviroment but ain't gonna stay but to moVE on again.... to another.... hm.... badie I am... I know... but it just not what I want thus to pursue n get to another ... Life is all about making choices, but I relly hate the kinda feeling being forced to stand on the crossroad without knowing which way to go....
It SEems likE I didn played hard enough recently n did not fullfilled my work hard play hard motto... lolZ~~~
Been strugGLinG thru my studies as well... tough round this time, really dun understand WhaT that meanie Lecturer is toking about... I haTe Math!! anythinG that require me to counT juST turn off my appettiate... ShiTs..... nevERtheless... Must go Thru this rounD too, the Last thing I wan is to Tabao n got to waste $$ again when my cash are so tight now..... haiz.... but thanks to my Super dubER Bro-in-Law, who help me to work thru It without to borroW any single cent from the bank~~ Hm... Man... I m realli so xin fu sometime... I dunno where I am now without my FAmily Uptmost SUppoRt!!
DEspite the TouGH battle, glad to have somE gOoD mix of Classmates .... REalli enjoy thEir company, jokEs, fun n laughter... :) Hm... nice~~
The Laydee
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Saturday, August 19, 2006
Chaim LA~~~ I have one more assignment to add on to my assignment loaD... It not about Organisational Behaviour Only but a pre-lecture assignment is added too~ ARHGH! jia laT~~FinallY compleTEd the 5 days of Lesson for OB, but The REAl nightmare have just began~ *sob* slp @ 2am after emailing my classmate the intake 7 exam questions .... & of course to included the MSN contacts list~ which dunNo how Come I become the Co ordinator for the class MSN list ~~ haiz~~ (-_-)" GOt this KoKonuT still call me Monitoress~~ si bey FieRCE.....#%#$%#^%$^ my reaction of courSE is :"I M NOT LO" Siao DE~~haiz~~
WEnt for Bak tu Teh with Sis & Bro this morning... yeah , heard it rite, morning lo! I even woke up at 7:30am today & tot I m late for work~~ Rush out & realise today is Sat~~ AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~!! ThinK I m Gng Crazy soon WIth all hte Tight Schedule coming along~~ Need to hand up 2 assignment by Friday Lo~~ Many REadings to Do~~ it DAMN Mani LO!
Trying to Sell my Printer to the Cash convertor today but forgot to bring Driver Cd... in the end I look at the man & say.... :"just take it & do whatever u want" whahahha~~ can't problably carry that Bulky things ard especially with my one ton bag~~ Jia Lat lo~ then pluS the 4 library books I borrowed..... DAmn damn Heavy & I took 853 home lo~~ STeady hor? & I do reading in the bus le.... KNN like Bookworm lo~~ I dun think anywhere in my life I get so hardworking for my studies lo~~ & look, I m reading with understanding le~ PoWER.... I mean in my own view la
Still, I kinda of like this type of Busy, hectic lifestyle... beginning to get use to it~ I like to know How far I can get push~ get press ... in a way,to get to knoW myself more in term of my own limitation~ hm.... & fun meeting with new ppl i Guess... ppl Realli from all walks of life~ hm...
GonnA to MOS soon with Mooies gang... dunno WAt to wear sia... apparently My weight remains the same despite the hectic life i m living for the past 5 days~~ sian~~ hm,...
The Laydee
is just simply Gorgeous 5:29 AM
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006
It been long ever since I started blogging liao~ SO bZ througout these period, & finally learn to take some time off for myself after the new replacement got familiarlise with her worK!Imagine the first day when she is so fresh~~ everything also dunno~~ KaOZ! teach until I DU LAN! Now I truly understand the fact of ppl wanting an experience person to be @ worK rather than Fresh Grad le~~ Hm... M glab that I went thru all those Hardship @ my ex company, if wasn't for that, I guess I wouldn't have run the whole show by myself.. (*proud*) kekekek~~ haiZ, still, I gueSS after doinG so much, much less of any increment , neither any words of appreciation... haiz~ this place is full of demoralising factors... First, leave me here alone, after pulling my best assistant out & then place a young & fresh person to train again~ think I m a trainer ah? This should not even be in my scope of work lo~ sometime I kindA of "look myself up" like tat also can taHan~sTupid COmpany! I wonder which singaporeans can sia. not that I m having some discrimination over this, I m a SG-reans myself but then, true fact is, ppl from overseas are willing to take hardship better than some of the SG-reans~ well... at least from my pt of thinking la... and to emphaise, what i meantioned above are for some nia, Co I noe afew of those who are able to take up shit as well~ hohohoho~ Well.... if wasn't for my well being to ensure my past experiences are good, I wouldn't have want to put up with all this shiTS! DAMN LO! I swear to myselF I m gonna get out Of HERE SOON!! ewahahaahhaahah~ *just imaginating* heeZ... (Need $$ for sch fee lo)
Talking back about the start of my course~ hm... so stress~ dunno what the Lecturer is talking... having a strong accent in his lesson really makes concentration difficult lo~ hm... consider quite fun in the class though everyone are still not very familiar with each other~ afterall it just like 5 days of lesson together every term~ kekek hates the Self introduction & those presentation momentS~~ kaOZ~ sian lo~~ sometimeI also dunno whAT I m prsenting about especiall when U can spot Many Outstanding presenter there~~ relly steadY lo!! Spoke with confidence, clear & precise in term of their presenting~~ hm... somemore with SEnse of humor de lo! PoWER! kekek GuESs I gonnA need abit more time in order to speak like them liao~ haiz... heng My braces took Out liao, otherwise I thinK I gonnA Mumble away ~ whahhah~~ well.... First assignment is coming on itS way..... DAmN sian... perhaps I just gonna spend my Bday rushing essays liao! Talk about Microsoft Organisation operation.... haIZ~~ (-_-)""" Level of teaching are indeed different from every level... hm... haiz ... hm....
The Laydee
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